Well I thought I'd give an update to people who really want to know. I've been out of the whole filming scene for sometime now and it was because I felt the light dimming, very hard to self motivate. Here's a little history of my background before the "realization".

Back in the days I worked with one very talented actress by the name of Lexie who was the only person that could hold a scene by herself. I worked with many students from ages 3-17 during my high school years. Once I attended college I affiliated myself with porn and b-horror films to get by in some fashion but it had leaded nowhere. Naked women running around everywhere screaming with fake blood made out of basic cooking mixtures. I smiled, laughed, and screamed at them calling them bitches and cunts. I knew it pissed them off but they were getting paid for it, better than Van Buren.

Then next week I worked next door to position three cameras and monitor them as a guy with an average penis (6inches) drilled a woman with extremely large breast that were as stiff as the guy's average penis. For thirty minutes, the guy vibrated on top of her while the director kept yelling at him, half the shit I didn't understand. He spoke a mixture of French and English, sounded like blah, but with a French accent and attitude. Sometimes the men would get carried away and cum inside the women. It pissed everyone off, mainly because it takes them twenty minutes to get some type of solider standing at attention. The ones with small penis were laughed at then escorted out and off the premises. Long days they were and good pay too.

After my contacts went dry (stopped doing film) I started to realize that this is going to be a and I quote "A FUCKING BITCH" to get in the business. Almost two years and nothing. Everybody else was in the business or working as a nurse. They just wanted to have the money and hope that someone will find them on myspace or better yet the web, till then they are at 36,000 a year. Everyone gets into film for the glory, fame and money. I mean everyone! If some scumfuck says otherwise they are LIARS! In this field you make money or you don't, end of story!

So now I am working at a retail store as a manager, good people skills you know. I don't want to make this a career. It would be the end of my film career to run a retail store that is failing greatly! Whoo! Give me props. NOT.

I've met someone that brought light back into my life and yes she's from a Jewish upbringing and has been through more than her fair share of "living the film". Always in front of the camera and has a real person emotion bursting through her eyes. Lived a life of struggle, pain and break-downs, her name is Rachel. She is going to trip everyone the fuck out. Two crazy fuck heads working on a film... What will be in stored for the fans???

Stay tuned all you fuckers that masturbate to people screaming while they are raped and gutted against they're own will!!!

-Carlos